


I love the colours of this little Czech creamer. I filled it with some hellebores and pansies from the garden. It made such a lovely arrangement that it was worthy of two video tributes. One a bit sad, with photos taken at night in the bedroom with the song “Ne Me Quitte Pas” by Nina Simone. The second more happy, photos taken in the sunny kitchen, with the song “Feuille d’Automne” by Indila.

Reality is a bit tough these days so I’m living in my imaginary eau de cologne commercial.

New roots and shoots on my papyrus cuttings.


Mum,
was I seven, may be eight
with you in this photo?
The seesaw signaling perhaps
how life would
separate us so
Each sitting on our own side
the Atlantic’s breadth between us wide
It could sink a heavy heart
But the further seesaw seats apart
the deeper the dips and higher the rise
And so it occurs to me, likewise
The deeper love can go
then the higher love can soar
That must be what the distance’s for

28 years ago I had a nervous breakdown. It was devastating. I found healing in the mountains of western North Carolina. This week I finally found the words to make peace with what happened to me. Writing is my therapy.
After I read my words, I realize there were gentle signs along the way directing me towards my healing – though I did not realize it at the time. It brings to mind a favourite quote from Danish philosopher, Soren Kierkegaard.
“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.”